Okay, when people who do know me get round to reading this, try not to choke, have a heart attack,heart failer or anything fatal! when you see ive writen two posts on one day and I'm actually writing in my spare time for the fun of it ! woo, someones been slipping me something really they must have done!... or perhaps its mearly the fact that I'm ill and it takes my mind of the searing pain in my throat that make's me feel there is barbed wire around my tonsils!!! damn it.
Okay well I'm now starting to get a little excited by Christmas purely because I love Christmas trees so so so so much, and okay this is so sad I know but Ive started listening to Christmas music :S eek... but I can explain why .. really... erm...okay :P
well Ive had depression for a while undiagnosed and just after last Christmas I was diagnosed so last Christmas I was suicidal and really not with it, so it wasn't exactly the merriest of Christmases for any of us although I tryed to hide it those who know me well knew I wasn't happy. Now I'm getting there I'm practically back to "normal":P and I only have another 6 months of medi left to go(fingers crossed) which feels so good and I'm not seeing my specialists as often so obviously they agree!
So well now I just can't wait to make this Christmas count!
We are going to spend the early morning at home and do stockings and all the usual Christmas morning stuff, then we (Me and Rowan) are driving up to his Mums for Christmas lunch and to spend a few days and then its back home !!! Which will be nice, to see everyone and then come home and smell my real Christmas tree!!!! yay! And hopefully catch up with my family (Mum, little siblings, aunt, uncle...etc) So yeah I'm truly excited and so looking forward to it. Ive also brought all my presents :O so I suppose I can enjoy it more as the stress is not there at all! I'm so proud of myself this is the first year I haven't ended up getting presents on Christmas eve and ending up in debt!
Anyway That about sums it up! I'm not sure what "it" is but hey :S its summed up...
Missing and loving you still!
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